Hey,whats up?

                      Hope all is well,I on the other hand,not so good.I am trying to hold it all in,but,I feel,right now,I am about to cave in,about to give up.I cant belive how much my whole life has changed since my Dad passed,after that seems like everything is going down hill.Even thoe,I get mad at him a times for leaving,I know hes in Heaven and not in pain.Now,its my mom,I am more worried about.I don't know what to do if,we have to sell this house and move in with my Sister,because there is no way I cant take care of mom,after seeing her today,she is paralyzed,she cant do anything for herself,which,she has to start getting the move on about doing Tence Therepay,so,hopfully,she can come home,she has to be able to walk,not much,just to the bathroom.If she goes into a Nursing home,this house would have to be sold,because,we will have to use the money to take care of her and I will move in with my sister,which,I don't want that to ever happened,right now,everything is up in the air.But,even if and when she comes home,my sis was explaining to me,I know shes in her 70s,still will have to be taken care of,my sis said to me,she would never put mom into a Nursing home to live for the rest of her life.I hate this,I iam just waiting on the days till she comes home.She is still not eating as much as she needs to.I am so tired at night,I cant sleep,I do like staying alone,but,I get lonely a lot,like.now.Well,this is going to be short.I sm fallimg asleep.I will write to you all later.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout.