Hi all,

              Hope all is good,lets just say,I am trying really hard tohang on,it is so hard,when,I am under a lot of stress right now,feel like I am falling apart,but,I cant,cant fall apart,cant let my mom see I am upset,she doesn't need this right before her having surgey tommrow on her brain to getting rid of one of her anurismes,it is major surgey that I wasn't really sure this was really serious,was told by my Sister the other day that the meds she is taking is keeping her heart alive.Its actullay taking a toll on me,trying to keep it together,but,really,honestly,I want to fall tottlay apart.I am scared,I am worried.I cant loose my mom,I would tottlay go insane.She is my life,she is so weak,she ca only stay in bed,just to go to the bathroom,go back to bed,she can take a shower,she has a seat in her shower.I never knew how hard this could be,taking care of someone you love and I would do it again if I had to.I just get so stressed out,cranky,grumpy.LOL.Annoied.My head hurts.Just so glad I have this blog were I can vent,let it out.Right now,I cant have any fun,I need to be there for my mom,24/7,she may even go intoa rehab center after surgey,so they can probllay take care of her more than I can,but,not sure whats going on.I know I shouldn't be mad at my Dad,but,sometimes I get mad at him,just miss him sooooooo much.Anyways,going to stop here,may write more later.Love you all.Be safe and kool out there.Peaceout!!