I just wanted to come and say,thank you to everyoneI wouldnt know what I would do without you all,probllay go crazy.LOL.

Hi all,

I hope you all is having a good night.I wanted to say thank you so mch to all of you for your good advice and thank you to Winivere for pointing that if I quit,I would be making a big mistake.I think I jst finally had a melt down,I didnt relize it till I went to work and I calmed down a bit.But this moring when I woke up,I will tell you,I was ready to quit so bad and I was actullay crying.I have never felt that way before about my job at all.I just am glad that I can come and talk to you all and ask for advice,because there arent many people who I can talk to,besides my Mom.I am greatful for that.She does depend on for the money,I pay rent,not much,but I do,I give rent every Friday,sepending on a good check,I will give Her more,if ir isnr a good one,She understands and I dont give Her as much.I did write my Mom a letter,which I havent given it to Her yet,it did feel good writting to Her and letting this all out.You wouldnt begun to know how many times I rewrote it and probllay will rewrite it again.I know one thing I am going to start doing,I am going to go down to the Socical S office and start filling out papers for SSI,I really want to do that.Someone was telling me I could apply for Disibilty through work.I am not sure about that.Anyways,there are things to think about.I really want to ask for my money bck,even if She gave me little eac week,I kno,I know,I should demand it back,but,I am to soft and I dont know how to ask for it.Stupid,ha?I shouldnt be that way,because its my money and She should have given it to me,way back than,after Her getting a 4 Hundred dollor cel phone.I feel that She wants me to quit,because She ows me money.Can you belive it,anoter co worker also owns me 20 dollors,from Her daughters School,that I ordered some stuff from and she never put it in.Anyways,I hust wanted to thank you all for being patiene with me,for understanding me.I dont want you all to think I am being fake about all of this,thats probllay stupid for me saying that.I am sure you all dont like to hear people complain all the time.I am sorry for that.I also wanted to let you all know that,I do have Doctors saying that I am cabel of not working,that I need 2 knee replacments,even a sit down job,would be to muh for me.Now that it is getting cold,I can feel my legs getting more hurt,when cold.Well,I am going to try nd get some sleep,I feel alseep a while ago,my legs were being very ancie and I could get relaxed,from them being so shaky.I am also goig to try and write Gary a letter to.Good night all,be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.