Sats Happenings.

Hi all,

I hope you all is having a good Sat.Me on the other hand,isnt doing to well.I cant make my mind up,rather or not to cal out from work today,or just go in there,do,what I need to do and leave.I can bearly walk.My left knee is very swolen,I havent seen it this swolen in a while,since I was on sick leave from work.I dont want to call out,because,I think they will get mad,because,I hve done that so many times in the past.Either that,or if they see me,they might send me home.Thank goodness,I am off tommrow,I am not going to do anything,but rest.Anyone know how to get the swelling to go down?I rea;;y dont know how my knee got so bad.If my Dad sees me like this,He usllay tells me to call out.I just cant see myself going in there,doing a good job.But I have to,no matter what.I have to grin and bare it.Sometimes,I feel so dusgested with myself.I called Gary this moring,before He went to work,and couldnt help it,but,I started crying on the phone.I hate myself sometimes.I relize last night,that I have been feeling more depressed lately and that my medicine isnt helping me.The Serquil,it helps me to sleep,thats about it,but,I think it also makes me very jittery,like shaky.I have to call and make an app,which I needed to anyways,to see my Shrink,which I havent seen in a while.I might ask to be put on amatriplyn,which helped me alot,along with Restless Leg syndrome,which I know I have.I hate looking at the site of my room,qhich is now,getting a little out of hand,I dont feel like doing anything to it.I dont feel in the mood to doing anything.No,its not that time of month either,already had it.Top off of that,my ears have been hurting,both of them.My left ear has been poping so much.I been putting ear medicine to see if there wwas any wax,but,nothing comes out.I have small ear drums,so,when I was little,I hd alot of problems with my ears.So,I dont know what to do,want to call out soooooooo bad,but,I am not going to.Unless,my Asst manager calls me,wonderging if Boyfriend talked to Her,but,told Him not to.Anyways,I am going to try and take it easy for now.I will talk with later.One more thing,I have a uestion,do you all start buying for Christmas now,if you see things and you put it up for next Christmas?I was thinking of doing that,but,tha again,kids change there mind on things they like.But I know my 2 Nephews that come on Sats,they love Starwars.My Neice is easy to buy for to.I know,bad word to think of,when this Christmas just passed.LOL.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.