Sats Happenings.

Hi all,

I hope you all is having a good weekend.I am good here,a little tired,but I am hanging in there,and maybe a little stressed out,but what is new?LOL.Ok,I made a Private Blog,but,I need to do some changes,wonder if I should delete that one and make another one?What do you all think?I dont know what to do about that one.I had an easy day at work today,which was good and I was glad about that,because,I usllay have to come in and pan and prep,someone else had to do that.LOL.I laugh,because,when She came in,She knew what She had to do,She thought She was going to get off easy,I dont think so.LOL.Because,She usllay does,She usllay gets off easy and I wasnt going to have it today.I wasnt going to stress myself out,which I will probllay have to pan and prap tommrow.Its alot fo work,let me tell you.I am glad to have a job and glad I have Health Insurance.Someone at work told me,which also a good online friend told me that I could apply for SSi or SSdi,that could help me out,which I knew and which I really want try and get on it.I am going to bug my Boyfriend to take me down to the Soical Sercituy office and try and get on it.My Mom doesnt think I should get on it,but what happends one day I cant work and I need something to help me?I am only thinking of me,someone has to,because,I relize my parents arent going to be around forever,even thoe my Sister thinks I will come and live with Her,if anything happends,which is good,but,I would like to know that I could handel things on my own,which I dont know how and thats the truth,I dont know how to handel anything on my own.My Boss said,She would folr me to come and live with Her,I know what some of you are saying and your right,that wouldnt go right and I would never want that,even after She ows me money,which I will probllay never see.She gets more than me and I could really use that money now.Christmas is comming up and I havent even made a dent in.I am stressed about that,because,I want to get my Mom and Dad something,which I alwyas put off till last and I dont want to do that.I know what I would like to get Mom,She loves to read,Christian Romance books,thats easy,but that I might have to get last,because,Shes probllay read alot of them.LOL.Now I jsut thought of what I can get for my Dad,which I got Him last year,I think.I will get Him a Bob Evans gift card,He will like that,because He likes to go eat there.So why am I stressing out?Because I HAVENT EVEN STARTED!!!!I had to get that out.I have only been clearing a hundred dollors every Friday,so its hard and not having hardly any money in the bank.I worry so much about everything.I want to go and see someone,which I need to,a Shrink,ok,I cant spell the big word,sorry.LOL.I wwonder if Serquil is right for me,it helps me sleep,but I feel I need something durring the day,now I do have a bottle of Celxa that I had for a while,but when I take it,when I took one,it gave me a really bad head ache,so,I dont think I should take that.I think I would like something during the day to help me to relax and not stress out.Does anyone have any advice about that?Just lately,I havent felt like wanting to do anything,all I ever really do is hang out with Gary,work and come home.I feel I have no life.LOL.What is worng with me,that I cant just have fun with like a girlfriend?I have a Bestfriend,I talk to Her every now and than on the phone and She used to spend the night,I havent done that in a very long time.Is that the depression talking?I probllay should talk about this in my Private Blog,but I think I am going to delet that one and make another one.Anyways,I am going to get off of here and get a few things done before tommrow.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout