Hi all,

I hope you all is having a good weekend.I am doing ok,hanging in there,even thoe I am a little depressed.I am depressed that I dont have enough hours at work right now.So much is comming up,the Holidays,Christmas,all of my Neices and Nephews Bdays.I dont think theres a free month without no Bdays.As sad as it is,and I know I said this before,but,I tottlay have cut back.I just sent my one Nephew,10 dollors and some stickers.I wish I could have sented more,but I cant do it right now.I only have 30 dollors to my name,from my pay check,which I got Friday.I usllay work on Sundays,which is time and a half,but lately,I have gotton that day off,which I dont ask for it.I dont even work that many days durring the week.I have to come up with something to help me pay my Doctor Bills,someone has mentioned,medicade,but I dont know how to do go about that.If anyone knows something that would help me, would be most greatful.I have Health Insurance,but my Copay is not that good.Belive me,I am greatful I have Health Insurance.I am not looking forward to going to see my Arthitis Doctor on Nov 10,He will probllay not be happy with me,beause I havent seen Him in so long and I havent had my Shots in 3 weeks now,because the Pharmcay that I get them from has closed down and I have to find another place,I just dont know how to find one,because,they send my Shots by Ups.So,I dont know whats going to happend.I can tell I have some pains in my legs from not having my shots.Something else I have to worry about.I am worrying so much about everything.Mainly,worrying about paying my Bills and Christmas.My Gary says,dont worr about getting Him anything,now you all tell me,I cant do that,because He gives me so much.Even thoe,He gives me more than I give Him,I want to make sure He knows I love Him and I know thats not what Christmas is all about and He knows I love Him.But you all know what I mean.I think I am going to start learning how to be creative,menaing,I want to learn how to maybe,make some pretty stuff,like,candles or making some pretty soaps,so I can give to my Sister N laws or people at work.see I told you all,there is something I am always going to worry about.I need to see my pain Doctor,maybe I can ask Him if He give me something to help me to relax and not to worry about so much.I know,I need to see a Shrink,but I cant afford it,even thoe I am taking Serquil,and I am glad I have enough of that for a while.I do have a question about that,should I worry that Serquil makes me shake a little bit?It helps me sleep,but it does make me shaky,not a whole lot,but,sometimes,durring the day,it I get a little shaky and kinda loose my balance,plus I have to be honest,I take a pain killer to help me sleep,sometimes.Anyways,I am going to close this,I know its getting long.I am just very depressed and down about what is all going on.Be safe and warm out there.Peaceout.