Hi everyone,
I hope everyone is having a good night.I am,well,right now all I can say is I am frustated with work,having to go in there,doing the hard stuff and trying to get it all done before I leave and thinking all night long,wondering if I did everything right.Because I was told that I need to pick up the speed and make sure I got everything right or I will get written up or less hours,which She is already given me anyways,not just me.I only have 3 days to work.So,like I said,I am sitting here,thinking,I did something worng,I think I didnt pann up something for the next day.I wish I could just quit,but I cant. I hate having to think about work all night long.I will probllay call Her in the moring.Enough about work,I dont even want to think about it,but,its hard not to.I am sorry I havent been around lately,I havent felt like myself and still dont feel like myself.I dont know what is worng with me.I dont feel like doing anything,other than work and come home.Nothing excites me anymore.I am always worrying about something.I feel like something is worng with me,because,why is it that,I dont want to hang out with my Girlfriend or my Co workers?I feel like my life is a mess.I feel like no one understands me.Yes,I am scared,I am scared to have fun,to even know what thats like.Sometimes,I feel like talking to my Boss,just letting Her know how I feel about me and my life,but,I dont know about that.The other day,I felt like just writting an entry,just saying,I cant do this anymore,I am done.But I didnt do it.What am I going to doI am sorry this is such a downer entry,but,I just dont have the heart to write anything pleaseant,which I dont have.Its sad,but,I dont even feel like waking up anymore.Dont worry about me,I will be fine.Maybe I need a change in my medicine,I take Serquil 300.I probllay need to see someone to update on my meds.I dont even feel like cleaning my room.All I am worrying about is stupid dang work that and my life is the pits.I have felt this way fo a very,very long time. safe and warm out there.Peaceout.One more thing that is frusating me is that when I get my pay check,its gone before Tuesday,so sad,because all spend it on is at the stoor.I have nothing to show for.Do you think I should tell my Boss how I feel?I also have been having fears of,not sure what to think of it,I get scared that I might not be alive the next day or that something will happend.Dont ask me why I am feel ling that way.Its not a good feeling.
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Amanda, I have simialr fears as you. I suffer from Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Panic attacks. Sometimes thoughts of death become obsessive. Not the kind were I want to hurt myself or others but the fear of it or someone I love dying. I have panic attacks almost daily, and it's a real medical condition that if not helped can really interfere with my life. It started interfering with mine because I refused to get help. I got some help and now I am feeling better. Go back to your doctor and explain what's going on and how you feel. I'm no doctor but it sounds to me like you are depressed which can really effect you as well. I would talk to your boss but keep it minimal. There are just somethings that your work doesn't need to know. I hope you feel better real soon. *M*
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I agree with Missy..was thinking the say thing when I hit comment...keep what ever you say toyour boss short and sweet...maybe if you must that you are having some personal issues or what ever...but know that we are all here for you...you can email if you need too...I go through the same thing...and am going through something simular..you are not alone in this...you will get through this hun...I am praying for you! Like I said if you need to shout at me..feel free..and know you are being prayed for..Hugs,TerryAnn
ReplyDeletegirl i know the feeling *hugs*
ReplyDeletebe careful what you say to your boss..she may use it against you..let your feelings out here!! at work just keep a positive attitude and do your job and you will be fine!!
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better soon Amanda! I would talk to your family and doctor, but agree with the others be careful what you share with your boss. Just put on the brave face at work and get it done. You are going to be fine. God Bless you!
ReplyDeleteI agree with others. I would not share too much information with the boss, that would not be a good thing. The people to speak to are your doctor and your family. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteSo know the feeling.
ReplyDeletesorry to hear your having such a hard time.
ReplyDeletework can be stressful at the best, & it seems more so for you.
see your dr & tell him about your fears & feelings, ask if you need your meds changed.
prayers going up, my friend.
huggies...